Mental health, Spirituality and other Life Subjects

  I am now seeing, that when I think I have done anything wrong, to any degree, I have hatred toward myself. It comes as a terrible feeling that I am angry and fearful of other people's judgements. I am afraid of their judgement because when I think people are unkind about/toward myself or others, I feel hatred and anger. Fear, hate, anger, unhappiness, judgement, are all very painful, and some of the main problems with this world.  I know I and everyone else will recover from the spell of ego (evil/wrong thinking). 

  This is something that came to me while writing today.  Why are we not free? Free of fear, doubt, and anxiety? We base our lives off of our beliefs of how other people think of us, and we have counterproductive/destructive/false/fearful/hateful beliefs about ourselves, others, and the world. That is the ego, the false self, which needs examination and healing. Self inventory, as they talk about in AA, is necessary. Self inquiry, as they talk about in Spirituality, is necessary.  When you forgive, you set yourself and the world free from evil, and invite love back in. 

       The hardest part of awakening/enlightenment is that we can no longer lie to ourselves about the judgement (fear, anger, hatred) that we carry, and we want to be done with it. We see the lack of love in our past and present, whether done by us or others, and we want to forgive, and allow God to come in and make a place in us, as it's put in the Bible. There are some ways of looking at the pain of the past that can clear out judgement, like forgiving/asking for forgiveness from others whether talking it out by yourself, or reaching out to people. Your heart will guide you in that choice.

Having an out of control mind (ego) is a bit like being out of shape. You can't really have it all the way better right now, but with time, effort, and patience, you will. Fearful, angry, hateful (bad) thoughts and feelings lead to more bad thoughts and feelings. This is the state of much of the world, lost in out of control mind. Is it possible to change the mind, heart, and soul for the better? With things that train the mind like meditation, prayer, forgiveness, self inquiry, free speech, and other healing techniques, the mind can go from being our worst enemy to our best friend. We can honestly love ourselves, God, and others, and think and feel predominately good, instead of predominately bad. This is the path to enlightenment, a state that has seemed unattainable, unreachable, unrealistic to much of the world for a long time. It is a state of peace, love, and joy that is not only attainable, but necessary for the world in this day and time. All the miracles in the different s...