Mental health, Spirituality and other Life Subjects

  I've been trying to identify why I have angst, or any bit of suffering, about any part of my life. I see from watching my mind that I have fears and judgements about others, because of the suffering I've experienced in different parts of life. In Christianity it says we are "born into sin", in Buddhism it talks about how life is suffering. I think what they're pointing to is the state of our world, and the families we are born into, which have traits of suffering that we pick up on from before we are born. I've been trying to see if I can get to the root of my ego, or suffering, and let go of the fear that has been holding me back. I see that I have been holding onto fear.  What am I fearful about? What is my judgement about?  All of what comes up when asking those questions can be helpful in letting go of the fear. Also it's important to remember that there is actually fear of letting go of fear, fear of forgiving, because these ways of being in life ha...

I am feeling fear. What is there to be fearful of? There's fear of being hurt because of past mistakes, of things not going right in the present, and of what wrong might happen in the future.  Yikes. I am experiencing anger. I am angry at myself for my past mistakes. I am angry at the present because of the wrong I've experienced recently and can't get away from, and I'm angry about the future because I think it will suck. Shucks. So, what to do? What would happen if I forgave everyone and everything for everything? What would happen if I let go of all fear? What would happen if I gave up all anger? Can I give them up fully? That's what I'm working on right now. Becoming my own best friend. I'm working on letting go of negativity, and loving myself fully. That's the work, that's the way, that's repentance, that's healing, that's the path to enlightenment. Thank you for reading 🙏🏽

  I am just having some thoughts today, that I want to share. I was thinking about my life, and the mistakes I made, and how it caused me to suffer in my life. I see my life, what I remember, and I see that I could have made better choices, but I feel we rarely are born into a place with the right guidance and safety. The things that have gone wrong in our life can make us angry, and we aren't taught to forgive, and to deal with our problems from wisdom.  In 2008/2009, I had an experience that was very profound, a period of time where I was free of fear/anxiety and full of Love, joy and peace. I now see that I could have used some guidance for navigating what came next, which was being diagnosed with "mental illness". There is another way of talking about mental illness, the term "spiritual emergency" which refers to the pitfalls of awakening (including the mental health system). People need to deal with their own past, and forgive as well as ask for forgiveness...

              Enlightenment is the freedom from the predominance of fear, anger, and hatred. We may still experience those emotions, but we are not overwhelmed by them. They are not our "default mode" as it is when we are caught in egoic mind.             Most people go their whole lives not healing what needs to be healed, not forgiving what needs to be forgiven. We don't follow our hearts, and go for the good dream/vision we have for our life. The truth is, we can be predominantly happy instead of unhappy. This is is the "way" that is talked about in some religions, though practicing it, by practicing forgiveness and love in every part of our life, has been missing in this world.  "The way" is repentance, forgiveness, love.  One day we'll follow our heart, and the world will truly be at peace. Thank you for reading my Blog! If you like what you see, check out my new ebook on Amazon/Kindle: Link to "The Dep...

                           "Our Love Ascending"              At some point every one of us will go on the hero's journey, a Spiritual journey of true Self seeking. The bird in this painting represents us as we go on that path, carrying different burdens and heaviness from our own life experience and our family/social ties. The different mountains, in different shades, represent different layers of obstacles that we face on the journey, and on this path, we may be at different levels at different times. Ultimately it leads to the blue sky, sunshine, and freedom.                     Self-Inquiry is for Everybody Forgive everyone and everything for everything. This is the way to have peace.             This is is a world with much untapped potential. The best thing we can do for ourselves or others is to w...

The Depth Book Physical, Mental, Emotional, And Spiritual Healing through Repentance By: John E. Campbell             To the mind which is the heart, which is our love which is our soul. I dedicate this book to our hearts and for helping all of us be free of fear, doubt, and anxiety.             Love God, yourself, and others with all your heart, mind, soul and strength. This is how to heal the ego. Chapter 1 What is the ego? Chapter 2 Physical health Chapter 3 Social health Chapter 4 Mental health Chapter 5 Emotional health Chapter 6 Spiritual health Chapter 7 Spiritual activism Chapter 8 Following your heart Final thoughts                                                                        Introduction      ...

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              I am feeling unhappy sometimes, because of my mistakes in the past. I feel unhappy also about the present because I have fears about interacting with people. And I'm fearful about the future sometimes because I'm afraid of bad things happening. Does the fear help me? I don't think it does ever. What am I afraid of happening? Being disrespected, sometimes being attacked, because of the rage and hate I would feel.  Fear keeps us from enjoying life. It keeps us from making the most of our lives. I'm working on getting to my best life, and I want to help others do the same.  Sending love y'all ✌🏽  Thank you for reading my Blog! If you like what you see, check out my new ebook on Amazon/Kindle: Link to "The Depth Book: Physical, Mental, Emotional, and Spiritual Healing I would love your support in buying it, and your feedback and thoughts about what you read!  Thank you, -John E Campbell  P.S. check out this list of w...

                Is it true that when people act/speak in an evil way it causes us to be angry, fearful, or hateful? I have been thinking about this recently, how I get very angry when people speak/act unkindly or hurtfully. You could say people are justified in their anger, because we should be angry about evil. But when I look back on history, and the different spiritual texts, they talk about forgiveness, and not blaming others for how we feel. There have been moments in my life where I've been like "Really? You're gonna be mean like THAT?" And then I remember how we are all fighting a hard battle, in a world where love is conditional, and where people are just tired of suffering. I think if there is someone speaking/acting in an evil way in our life, we can walk away for a bit, and think of a gentle and loving way to respond. And I think that true healing is everyone's destiny. Just some thoughts. 

  So, enlightenment is something that isn't widely known about, yet it is the state of being that all the different religions talk about. It is possible that you could enjoy life with the potency of a child, and the wisdom of an adult. Enlightenment is freedom from the mind out of control, and feeling joyous and right. Some people think enlightenment keeps you from living your life, or being active in fighting for the right causes. But in actuality it gives you courage and wisdom, and helps you bring love into every part of your life, including dealing with conflicts.  I have dealt with a mental health diagnosis over most of my adult life, though I have had glimpses of enlightenment (Satori) that had me keep hoping for that love and peace I felt to come back. Looking back, I now see what many spiritual teachers talk about, which is the importance of how you live your life, how you treat other people.  Doing the task of repentance (forgiving) helps you find enlightenment, ...

I've been thinking about mental imbalances, and what they really are, and I think that the solution and healing for them is forgiveness, and pursuing your hearts desires for your life (that are right with you and God).  The pain we experience in life can be so deep that it can be hard to live a good life. Our past mistakes, our fears and judgements about ourselves and others, and not being at peace with our current circumstances cause us to suffer. When we heal ourselves of suffering by forgiving, we heal our life, and this leads us to a blessed life. There is fear in us, which is actually love in pain. It is because of evil circumstances in our past or present, which also makes us fearful of the future. There are some conditions that people have lived or are living through that are extreme in terms of suffering. We can be of better help to ourselves and those suffering by looking into ourselves and our lives, and make the changes we need to make. Doing these things, following our ...

  Why am I afraid of people not liking me? I fear that because the fear is painful, and I am blaming them for the pain I feel. If I think people don't like me to any degree, I feel fear, anger, or hatred, and that pain makes me hate them, and I feel ashamed because of that. All the spiritual texts say that we are to be good to everyone, inside and out, and love everyone, even those who have done wrong. I'm a work in progress. Forgiveness is the medicine I'm using to heal my fears.

  Is unhappiness a noun? Is it a thing? Is it substance, is it made of something? Or is it a feeling? Are any feelings substance? Made of something? Is goodness a substance? Or is it a quality of being? People sometimes say just be positive, but for a lot of people it just isn't possible. They need a different focus, they need to look at their negativity and what's bothering them in a certain way to let it go. Looking at your fears, by saying them out loud, or writing them down, or looking at them in meditation, can be powerfully healing. Forgiving, and asking forgiveness, is powerful, and the way from negativity to positivity.  Be your own best friend, by forgiving. It will change your life for the better in many ways.

I was just thinking, about one of my fears, which is "what if my life doesn't get better? What if I try my best, and still don't succeed?" It starts in childhood. We learn about limitations in a disempowering way, because we immediately are faced with a world that is only good to you if you are "behaving", and sometimes not even then. People grow up in an angry world, and become angry themselves, which leads to things like crime/violence. Many people who are charged with crime are out of control internally, because there is so much anger about the world and unkind circumstances growing up. I do believe that we need law and enforcement in the world that we're in, but the way this nation and almost all others deal with criminals causes more harm than good. One day in jail/prison, as it is, is too much. Furthermore, there are nations in the world that treat criminals humanely, and see far better results for those people, and far less crime.  So, how can we ...

 What is right judgement? It is discernment of actions, examining our beliefs, intentions, thoughts, words, deeds, and feelings, seeing them as right or wrong without wrong judgement. Wrong judgement is fear or hatred of anyone or anything, or any of those above mentioned actions. When a situation or person causes you fear or hatred, deal with it by talking it out with yourself or God, and pray about/for them. It may give you the strength and/or courage to say something, do something, walk away, accept, pray, forgive or any combination of those things. Choose to love everybody, and if you have trouble with that, keep trying.   Thank you for reading my Blog! If you like what you see, check out my new ebook on Amazon/Kindle: Link to "The Depth Book: Physical, Mental, Emotional and Spiritual Healing" I would love your support in buying it, and your feedback and thoughts about what you read!  Thank you, -John E Campbell  P.S. check out this list of wonderful books i...

  I am now seeing, that when I think I have done anything wrong, to any degree, I have hatred toward myself. It comes as a terrible feeling that I am angry and fearful of other people's judgements. I am afraid of their judgement because when I think people are unkind about/toward myself or others, I feel hatred and anger. Fear, hate, anger, unhappiness, judgement, are all very painful, and some of the main problems with this world.  I know I and everyone else will recover from the spell of ego (evil/wrong thinking). 

  This is something that came to me while writing today.  Why are we not free? Free of fear, doubt, and anxiety? We base our lives off of our beliefs of how other people think of us, and we have counterproductive/destructive/false/fearful/hateful beliefs about ourselves, others, and the world. That is the ego, the false self, which needs examination and healing. Self inventory, as they talk about in AA, is necessary. Self inquiry, as they talk about in Spirituality, is necessary.  When you forgive, you set yourself and the world free from evil, and invite love back in. 

       The hardest part of awakening/enlightenment is that we can no longer lie to ourselves about the judgement (fear, anger, hatred) that we carry, and we want to be done with it. We see the lack of love in our past and present, whether done by us or others, and we want to forgive, and allow God to come in and make a place in us, as it's put in the Bible. There are some ways of looking at the pain of the past that can clear out judgement, like forgiving/asking for forgiveness from others whether talking it out by yourself, or reaching out to people. Your heart will guide you in that choice.

Having an out of control mind (ego) is a bit like being out of shape. You can't really have it all the way better right now, but with time, effort, and patience, you will. Fearful, angry, hateful (bad) thoughts and feelings lead to more bad thoughts and feelings. This is the state of much of the world, lost in out of control mind. Is it possible to change the mind, heart, and soul for the better? With things that train the mind like meditation, prayer, forgiveness, self inquiry, free speech (the type utilized in Psychology), and other healing techniques, the mind can go from being our worst enemy to our best friend. We can honestly love ourselves, God, and others, and think and feel predominately good, instead of predominately bad. This is the path to enlightenment, a state that has seemed unattainable, unreachable, unrealistic to much of the world for a long time. It is a state of peace, love, and joy that is not only attainable, but necessary for the world in this day and time. A...

 Hey y'all. This is an example of self inquiry I just did. Just wanted to share it. Also there's a video at the bottom of the page I think you would really dig. Love and light y'all 🙏🏾✌🏾 Do I need to be afraid about anything? There are fears that you have, like people's anger and judgement. Do you need to be afraid of that? No I don't.  Why are you afraid of those things? Because I'm afraid of the anger and judgement that comes up in me when people are like that to me. So you're afraid of something that might not happen (though in the world you live in, it will probably happen sometimes) Do you need to be afraid of that happening? Is it helping? Does it ever help? No it doesn't, it just causes me to suffer. I want to be free of fear, anger and hatred. Is there anything else you are afraid angry or hateful about? Yes.  Keep looking into these things. That is good self inquiry 

  I was just thinking, "is everybody not liking me all the time, or am I not liking everybody all the time?" This thought came from the realization that I don't like/love anybody in my life all the time or fully. How can this be so? Can people relate to this? I think most of the world might relate to this to be honest. This is wrong ego, this is wrong personality, this is wrong beliefs, intentions, thoughts, words, deeds, feelings or desires.  Some people grow up in violent situations. There is violence in people's upbringings, violence in school, violence in society. I think this has led many people to be violent, and society has convinced us that the solution to this is jail/prison. Jail/prison as it is is not a solution, it is a crime against humanity. Even if there were no threat of violence/abuse from other prisoners, being in a jail cell for days on end, or for any amount of time, is tortuous. It is counterproductive to punish people in ANY way. People may need ...

For a long time in my life, and even sometimes recently, I have felt so much pain and guilt, fear, anger, hatred about things I did or that others did. This world is way off because genuine love is missing so much from our lives, because of the hurt that we or others are carrying.  True repentance, which is what true religion/spirituality points to, is about forgiveness, and healing our trauma. Some people think it has to take a lifetime, but it really can be much sooner when we commit to healing ourselves, and doing our best to love everyone, and ourselves. Praying for you dear reader to feel better as soon a s possible, in God's way ❤️

What would it be like if everybody followed their heart? They would have really cool ideas for their current situation, and really cool ideas for the future, and moving forward. They would forgive, and ask for forgiveness. They would be inspired to write, compose, play music, make art, study the sciences and mathematics, and they would be brilliant because of the lack of judgement. We all would become empowered to speak out against people being shelterless, the jail/prison system as it is, and we would speak to the world about making it a better place, from the heart. 

  I've been thinking about judgement, the fear and anger I've experienced about the past, the fear of being mistreated, and how forgiveness is the way to let go of that pain. I was thinking, "are there any people in my life that I'm angry at? And if so is that anger ever justified?"  There are people who have been through much worse circumstances than I have. They heal by forgiving. I had a thought about someone in my life, and I saw that I was angry at them because I saw them as being unkind toward me. I am also thinking about how I have had judgement toward almost every person in my life, because the fear that I'm holding makes it painful to interact with people sometimes. I've been talking these things out while alone, and keeping myself aware of the pain I'm holding in these situations. Keep looking into yourself, and improving your life by following your heart!

A Shaman has a certain position in a traditional culture in different parts of the world. They are a counselor, a teacher, a therapist, a healer. There are more roles that they have. A Psychologist, in today's society, works with people on a certain level by talking about their issues, and finding solutions in a safe way.  We can be our own therapist and Shaman by spending time looking into ourselves, our lives, and making the choices that we know are right for us. If we haven't been listening to our heart for a long time it can be hard to hear, but with dedication and love it becomes easier and easier to do the next right thing.

            The God Walk Testimony     This is a true story           I had been living at home off and on for most of my adult life. I tried to hold down cashier jobs and jobs with the musical skill I had. I was part of a brass band for a long time and really enjoyed it, but became depressed in 2022 and stopped working altogether.  Let me step back for a minute in time though. I graduated high school in 2006 and went to college; I feel I was a bit misguided by myself and others about the options in life. Looking back I would have spent more time studying my horn (trombone) independently without going to an "institution of higher learning". College can be a good thing if its guided the right way but I didn't take my studies seriously. I think the education system needs a great overhaul and could use a lot of help from people finding their own way and searching themselves before going. I think that's true of both stud...